Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Fear of the Unknown

At work I get the feeling there is something up. And I don't get the feeling it is anything good. A big project got shut down last week--it had been my project for several years. I moved on and the guy who took my place got laid off in the shut down. I feel bad for him and a bit like I dodged a bullet. I've had a new boss since December and I've only talked with him one on one once since. I finally bit the bullet and asked for some of his time. I want to make sure what I am doing is what he expects. At first I enjoyed the freedom of doing my thing and not really checking in with anyone, now it has me a bit uneasy.

I've been giving a lot of thought lately to what else I might want to do. I've been there for almost 10 years after wandering in off the street as a temp. I've worked my way up into an interesting job with good perks, the flexibility needed for the Mom of two small kids, and a short commute. I feel kind of like the side benefits are too good to go out looking for something new. There is also comfort in the known. I like the people I work with, its the only "corporate" job I've had, and sometimes the devil you know is just easier to deal with.

I really think I need to polish up my resume and start looking at least casually. One never knows what might happen tomorrow. Oh I hate the thought of looking for a job though. Better to look while I have one though than wait until I don't.


joansy said...

Uugh. I hate that kind of anxiety. I hope everything works out.

Hilly said...

I'm sorry you have to feel this way. It is not fun, I know.

Tree said...

Oh, wow! I had no idea. I must say your logic is clear.