Wednesday, November 7, 2007

It's not cancer

Hearing those three little words from the doctor's assistant today was like having the weight of the world lifted from my shoulders. I swear I was holding my breath while I was on the phone waiting for my doctor to pull the results from the hospital's computer. I had been trying really hard not to dwell on the possibilities but it was like the big pink elephant in the room that everyone was ignoring. Words like biopsy and pathology being thrown around but no one uttering the "c" word. My doctor assured me he was confident it was nothing but wanted to be sure. I wanted to believe him but wondered how many times doctor's had uttered those words to someone else and it really was something. The rest of the conversation was something about out of sync lining--whatever that means. I was glad when she said he'd explain it next week because I really wasn't listening any more.

I go to bed tonight breathing a little easier and with a little perspective. The last three weeks of waiting and wondering are laid to rest--for now. The realization that we really never do know when our time will come and how it will come has been brought to the forefront for me. I'm going to try to make my life a little more about the present and think less about tomorrow and the day after. I also think about the people fighting cancer like Especially Heather and WhyMommy and lots of others who got the news no one wants and are fighting it so valiantly.

Tonight I am thankful for my health and that of my family. I'll be saying a special prayer for those who aren't so lucky.


EmbracingKatrina said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you!

Now it's my turn to worry...I have a mammogram scheduled for Nov. 21 because of a lump.

Heather said...

Sending you positive vibes.

g-man said...

You held it together really well darling. I'm happy for you (us) too :) I love you.

WhyMommy said...

Hurrah for good news! Whoo-hoo!

I am very happy to hear this!